Sisters, I have spoken about many aspects of loss of pregnancy and infertility. I have spoken of the fear of physical harm, the uncertainty of the right paths to take (or to take any at all), the grief and mourning over lost children.
But there is one part of these things I have yet to write about. I feel to do so now. My fellow women out there please hear this:
You are still a woman. I know sometimes in the dark of night, questions of worth arise. If your body doesn't do the things what you feel it was designed to do, sometimes you feel, well, undefined. Questions of worth concerning infertility or loss of pregnancy, any questions of worth, do not come from God. They come from one who would have you believe you are nothing. This is not the case.
I am not immune to these feelings. I am not immune to these questions. Sometimes when my daughter learns to do something new on her own, I feel her slipping more away from me and my purpose with her. This, also, is not the truth.
No matter if we hear this often or not, we need to hear it again. We have worth, we have purpose, we are daughters of a Heavenly Father who loves us and grieves with us. He knows the plan, but he hurts when we do. Whether we have 10 children or none, whether we are married or not, whether we have multi-million dollar careers or stay home and count the pennies, whether or bodies work perfectly in all their functions, or not, we are of the same worth to Him. We have value in this world. We can change lives beginning with our own. This is not to say we must do so on our own. There is no sorrow in asking for help, in prayer, and from those around us.
My love to all. My prayers with all those wondering of worth and hoping in the future.
"God sees you not only as a mortal being on a small planet who lives for a brief season—He sees you as His child. He sees you as the being you are capable and designed to become. He wants you to know that you matter to Him." - President DIETER F. UCHTDORF, 2nd counsler in the Presidency of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints - Link for the entire article: http://www.lds.org/general-conference/2011/10/you-matter-to-him?lang=eng&query=worth+women
